Mood Swings

I've been super DUPER crazed this week. Not that I have been angry - or not more than normal, but I've been truly sad. I get this high one day, and the next day I feel like throwing myself off a cliff. I cried until 5 in the morning the other day. FIVE!!!!

I have been seeing a lot of fellow LB YouTubers talk about the same thing, and I was like ok. I didn't particularly think about me. I didn't think it pertained to me. I mean even at my highest weight, I was ok with my life. I was content, and now that I have lost 29 pounds, you would think that I feel good about myself. WRONG! I feel like I should be losing weight faster. I keep thinking that even if I lose 100 lb I will still be considered fat in society.

Whats even sadder is that I keep on thinking about a boy when I know that I shouldn't. There is a lot of back story behind it, like every story right, but I will not go into that. I think about myself and my outer appearance and what the opposite sex thinks. maybe its because I have been single for the past year and a half. Maybe its because I don't know if I would date myself.

I should be thinking otherwise since I HAVE had relationships at this weight. There is nothing stopping me from having a boyfriend except for myself.

Alas, I stemmed out into a whole other tangent. What my main concern is THAT boy. Its stupid I know. I haven't even heard from him in a while. I mean of course I think of him, but I don't think of him and cry about it DAILY like I have. Its sick. SICK!

This sudden depression-like behavior is dumb, and I need to kick it in the face.

Veggie Soup

I'm in the second stage of food. I was VERY excited to taste something other than watered down broth, and isopure. So I popped open a can of low sodium Southwest Vegetable soup from Progresso. I measured out a 1/4 c and cranked up my immersion blender. Then, I remembered I COULD NOT have corn. So, I looked back at my Post-op pack, and I not only couldn't have corn, but I couldn't have bread, pasta, rice, potatoes, carrots, bananas or beans. The bread, pasta, and rice I could understand.

Anyway, I looked further down on the list and it suggested:
V8 Pureed soup
Low Sodium Campbell select soups
Tomato Soup (yuck)
Onion soup

 I headed on over to Kroger I looked over all the acceptable soup options with no luck. All of them had something that I could not have. I went up and down the soup aisle for about 10 minutes looking like a fool. Finally I told myself that THIS WAS IT! I needed to make my own soup. I picked up a can of diced tomatoes (no salt added), then the freezer section for frozen veggies. I swung by produce to get celery. Ready diced celery was 1.50 and celery stalks were 1.30. Easy choice there! The lazy way!

Enough chit-chat. On to the soup!

 Boil up some veggie broth

I then added 3c of water and realized it tasted like water so I added a bouillon cube

 

I let that boil for a min on high heat, then added everything else!

 Half the bag of each: Chopped onions, green beans, chopped broccoli and 3 pepper/onion blend

 Spinach was in the freezer so I added it too, like 1/4 c

I let it come to a boil for 15 minutes, then lowered the temp to low, 

and let it simmer for an hour and a half with a lid

When the time when off I used my immersion blender and blended a little at a time

You easily leave your soup like that, but I wanted it 

COMPLETELY smooth so I put it through a fine mesh strainer

And this is the finished result with a tbsp of Tofutti Sour Cream